What did I learn from this course?

Honestly, I always love it when it is Dr. Edwin’s class, although I shake most all the times I got in his class in the first and second semester. Well, I don’t really like him at the first time I saw him, I thought that he was terrible fierce and I just can’t get use with his style. But, as time passed by, his class is the class that I will not want to miss, which actually change from the class that I won’t dare to miss to a class that I don’t want to be miss. Well, he is a good lecturer and I get the engagement towards the literature towards him and Dr. Jayakaran as well. He taught us many new things and ideas that we actually never think that it would actually work. Well, I confessed that I never get an A in his class and I’m a bit dummy that I get things latter than others, but I do love literature and what he taught in the class actually stimulus me in some ways.
Literature is not simply the knowledge about literature, but it is about life. I wish that when I become a teacher in the future, I will try my best to lead my students to engage to literature, an engagement that will lead students to their personal growth.
Well, through the research paper, I have learned to be more independence than before, I guess. At first, I thought that it is more to a spoon feed paper, as research paper is something very new to me. But, I was wrong, of course. I was so frustrated when my supervisor doesn’t give us any guide line and every meeting is done in a rapid manner. Yes, I did blame him for not consider about our situation, however, I change my way of thinking when I started to realize that it is the time for me to learn to be independence, instead to be spoon feed all the time, moreover, I was the only person that is over loaded of works.
I changed my topic over and over again, lack of guidance, in the middle of no way and unsure what to do, while other groups actually have came out with their first draft, second draft and bla…bla…bla… I never compare myself to others (Well, my friends always said that this kind of attitude actually kill me from moving forward.) and I never want to, until this time around, I started to get nervous and tense up. I even have sleeping problems, I just hate stress!!! BUT, without stress and comparative, there is no way that I will try myself to die to finish the research paper.
I started to scare about continuing my study in the future, just because of this research paper. Hehehe… I always questioning about it this lately, if I couldn’t cope with this paper, how I’m going to study something that even tougher than this?
I’m glad that it is over now and I can get a well sleep plus spend my whole afternoon reading scary comics without worrying about any research paper anymore is the most heavenly thing to doJ